Follow up to Brokenness

  I wanted to share more of what has been on my heart.  If for no other reason than so that others can see that I have the same struggles that you do.  I am still of the flesh, born a sinful person, and I struggle. 
  I have been reflecting upon what I was feeling and working through yesterday.  God is good all the time though and this morning He has been especially good in showing me why I was weary.  Why I was feeling broken.  It was because I was too caught up in ME.  I was still hanging on too much to all the things I wasn’t getting done, the sleep that wasn’t coming, the dinners that were going unprepared.  Even though I felt like I was focusing on the needs of others, the needs of baby Jason and his parents, the other pressing issues that we have at the moment, the bottom line was I was still focused on ME.  I was letting myself get weary, not my circumstances getting me that way. 
  My time with the Lord this morning could have not been more dead on to what I needed to hear.  Reflecting on a study that Beth Moore has, has helped me see this also.
Gal 6:9-10 “And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.  So then, as we have opportunity, let us do good to everyone, and especially to those who are of the household of faith.”

  Yes, I was still trying to do good, and that trying was sincere, but ultimately I am the one who allows satan to tell me that isn’t enough.  To allow him to make me feel broken.  God is faithful regardless of when I let ME get in the way.  His promise gives me strength.  In Isaiah 58:6-11, he promises us that if we are to spend ourselves for Him, and call on Him,
He will guide us continually.
He will satisfy our desires.
Our light will rise in darkness.
He will make our bones strong.
We shall be like a watered garden, whose waters do not fail.

So I humbly come to you and ask that you not only keep the baby in your prayers, the parents, but also myself.  Pray that I never become weary doing good for His glory.  Pray that I continue to let go of ME and cling to His strength, no matter the circumstance.  Pray that I never give satan a foothold in any of this.  I will pray the same for you.

And, Praise God, baby Jason is showing so many signs of recovery.  And although there are still those other pressing matters that are unresolved, others that need our help, I have a renewed strength today.  So thank you for your prayers.  They are making such a difference.
Matthew Ortega1 Comment